We danced ourselves into madness.
You and me, once upon a dream.
Down the rabbit hole we fell.
Tumbling and twisting through future
They drank you, they ate me
And swallowed us in fog
until I saw a smile in the darkness.
And I followed.
And he taught me how to drink the world,
and get lost in the gardens with too many paths.
Then came the darkness.
And your head was lost
to the hearts of others,
while I remained tumbling.
I woke up to the teapot,
And realized it was never about the tea
but the madness that lay within,
the madness boiling over
and the rabbit who ran away
with time on his shoulder.
And I realized time had been stolen from us
by the tears that drowned me,
and the flowers that despised me.
Wake up, you said.
Wake up and follow the smile in the night,
even if he might lead you
to unfamiliar places.
And I did it without realizing
that you would never follow.
For my cards were shuffled,
while yours were stacked to perfection.
We were the mad ones, you and me.
Mad until you lost your head,
and decided to leave my heart instead.
You left me blue and drowning,
with nothing to grip but a floating bird,
whose wings I’ll borrow for a little bit longer
while you shuffle your cards
how I never shuffled them.
It’s okay. It’s all going to be okay.
For I am awake now,
And I don’t need to grow another size.
You live your life without your head
And your stack of perfect cards.
While I tumble and fall,
while I dance in the fog
to a smile that deceived me
and a fantasy that released me.
An excerpt from my current book project 'Ramblings'.